我的"幻想"

躺在床上
闭上双眼....回忆着过去那两年半
所做过的事.......有悲伤的.........也有快乐的
自从两年半前的那天.......
我的生活从.........一个拥有梦想的人生...
......转变成一个好无意义的无聊人生
.....自从进了国际学校后......
父母对我的期望.....
.....和压力也大大的增加了许多
我想当漫画家的梦想...
也因此也破灭了
心里背负着父母对我的期望....
心想要是我出社会后......
就只当一个漫画家
父母应该会对我非常的失望吧...haiz
本来想说在美里努力读完中学后
然后出国到日本...hahahah
学画漫画....说不定还可以出一本自己的漫画呢............
........哈哈哈哈~............
但如今....梦想已成了泡沫
梦想.....成了幻想
再怎么不停的去想
终究.....还是永远不可能实现的....
..幻想而已

new songs hahaha lolz

i juz change my music player againz.....hahahah
hahah juz boringz nothing to do
By2's songs hope u guys will like it
it is quite many of them sooo...
the best 1 i think is
DNA!! hahah nice song

my new pet...SAKAII

i hav a new pet !!
it isnt real pet but it is still sooo cute...
it is a "cyber pet" wahahahah...
sakaii the penguin!!!!.....XD
...u can click it n play with it hahah XD

n i juz change some songs in my music mixpod player~
the first song is by BY2.....dont go away~
n the second song is by gary n fish leong.......PK~
the third song is gary's.....supermarket
n after it is by yiruma's.....kiss the rain (piano solo)
n the last song is super junior's................sry sry

hahaha new song ooo
all very classic de~
hope u guys will like it

now i am gonna play with sakaii....comments kk^^

my late dinner....very very late

this sunday after i went to church~
my parents said that they want to go to bandar.....haiz
cuz my bro hav some enviro"mental" project need to do wit his frenz..
so they ask me would like to go wif them or not....
lolz....of course not!!
from KB to bandar.....is like from the west side of brunei go to the east side of brunei
lolz....very tired de .....DX
so i said tat i dun wanna go wif them....
the first reason is i can be very very very tired.....haiz
but the second reason is i get a new game....XD
tat is the awesome thing i said in the last post ^^
RED ALERT 3 wahahahahaha nice game~
cool eh.....XD

before they leave i ask they when will they come bak....
around 7 they said....quite early 4 me tough
so i didnt worried tat much about wad will happen to me n my stomach afterwards....=.=
after they went out i go to my room n PLAY RED ALERT 3!!
it is a pretty hard game to play.....red alert 2 is easier to play haha

about six......i feel tat i am a little bit hungry...hahah maybe i didnt eat much when i am having my lunch....=.=lll
so i didnt care about it
when they clock's shows seven o clock....i closed all my com. n act like i am studying
while waiting my dinner.....*hungry
my parents dont like me playing games the whole day....=.=lll

while i am studying n waiting my dinner.........i fall asleep hahaha zzzzzzz
i get very very very hungry so i wake up after 1 or 2 hours.....
i am hoping there is supposed to a dinner in front of me........
but there is not......dreaming of food huh
u can see how hungry am i now...

the clock shows 9 when i wake up...T.T freakin hungry
so i wait at the door till 10....
they come bak.....
they saw a "zombie" hanging on the door....
starving.......dying...tat is me

i rush to them n grab my "da bao" dinner......
finally my late dinner.....

PS. i finish my dinner at 10:04....too hungry juz finish the whole dinner for like 4 minutes

my new n mushroom-like haircut

i had a hair cut at miri yesterday in miri...t.t
it is a pretty shit haircut...
cuz my mother told the barber to cut as short as he can
i know this after i cut my hair
lolz sad mum
now my hair become a mushroom
happy or sad.......u know
bad luck this week
first my elbow
n now my haircut.....
wow...an "awesome" week 4 me

haiz......
tomorrow i hav a choir at the church
wif my new haircut
in front of everybody.....
walao....i better go act like i hav H1N1.....
then i wont go to church......

such a sad week 4 me.....
but i hav an awesome thing happen this week...
i will tell u wad is the awesome thing in the nxt post.....
it is very lolz n happy de thingy so......ya

now i am ignoring my mum
hope my mum will giv me something as an "apologise giv"
lolz her fault lah.......T.T

horrible hospital~

i went to the hospital today cuz i injured my ankle....T.T
it was horrible
when i went inside to the hospital to the registration
there is no one checking for the swine flu.....
OMG it is freakin scary.....tat means maybe there is someone in this hospital hav swine flu

......after the counter giv me the number of the room tat i should go
i went into the most horrifying "pathway to hell"
through the pathway...almost everyone is having a flu.....
koffing at me when i went pass by....T.T
crying while i walk to my room....T.T

then i went to the bench to wait 4 the doctor to call me
i wait....1hour.....2 hour......
APAKAN!!! wad happen
the doctor keep calling patient that came behind me....lolz

then as last!!!...we r the last 1
when we went into the room the doctor said that we r not on the list...
n we see in the comp. there is no my name...
so the kind n helpful doctor help us to ask the counter...
tat freakin old n ugly malay wild boar
said tat she put our name in the wrong room.....DX
after the checking....
the doctor said it is a bruise....

wooo...~ =.=lll
thx god i didnt broke my bones...i still wanna play badminton T.T....
but that is the most painful bruise i got in my life....
ouch...it is very painful

my injured left hand....t.t

today......
bad day ever in my whole holiday i think........ T.T
i juz injured my left hand while i am goin to take something in my room.....

i didnt notice that the floor is wet.....
so i juz run to my room....XD
and the next minute i know is
BAAM BOOM!!! *crack

i think i broke my bones
my elbow hurt so much now.....T.T
now i am using my right hand to type
that means my injuries is very bad
and my butt hurts too
ouch!!!
maybe because my butt is full of fat
so it doesnt hurt tat much...=.=lll

hahahaha.........mmmmm.........laughing n crying at the same time =.=lll
the point is my elbow hurts
and my mun said she is gonna take me to hav a X stray
sad....very sad
now i cant cook my favourite maggie....walao T.T

and now i really wanna hav some buisness done with my "cute" bro n sis......
when i "pelanting" and sobing on the wet floor
they r laughing at me.....DX
dammit!!!!!

when i am fully heal......
they will know wad is the word
"death"!!!!

hahahahahahah....................................mmmmmm....T.T